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I know I said I'd start making some postive changes in my life..but apparently I'm too stubborn to do that. I hate everything at the moment. Especially school. F*ck you school and all the shit you give me. If something makes me so unhappy, why do I continue to do it? I'm already a failure, this is just making the situation worse. I seriously think I want to take a semester or two off. School is not my place at the moment. F$%K it!! I don't give a damn anymore. I stop caring a long time ago and just can't seem to break the bad habit. I don't care if I'm "lucky" to be in school rather than working or doing this and that. Everyone is different..especially when it comes to school. People handle things differently and honestly..right now, I seriously don't think it's for me. I think I need time OUT of school. I have a lot of thinking to do.

This semester already sucks big dick. I'm obviously failing my classes, AGAIN. I'm just stupid. don't care what you think.. it's true. I don't have a good head on my shoulder. I don't have a good sense of direction. I have nothing. I have let everyone down and most of all myself.

As Johnston once said, "I'm just at that f*^k you stage...so f*^k you!"

I just don't give a rats ass anymore.