Life and it's curve balls

So as I'm sitting here doing my homework, I decide to scan through Myspace. It's just funny the things you can find out on a retarded social network. I found out that one of my good friends from way back in the day is pregnant. Now, things have changed and we aren't close anymore. Not sure why we ever were in the first place. But sometimes people just cling to me for help and guidance and I think that's what I was there for at the time. Now I'm not putting her down as a person or anything but it's so sad to see that at 18, she is throwing her life away. She is happier then ever about this baby but her mind is just not in the right state. She still parties like crazy with that baby in her tummy and it just makes me wonder what she is thinking. Obviously with that being in the open, she doesn't have any sense of well being for this poor baby. It's so sad.

It's just interesting to me to see the path that people take in their lives. Some are smarter then others of course but sometimes seeing the path someone is taking is really shocking. I can only hope that I continue to make wise decisions and be smart about which direction I head down. I think I'm dong ok at the moment. If it happens to be the wrong direction, I hope I can retrace my steps and learn from it. I know we are suppose to fail at things and be let down only to help make us stronger people. I just hope during those times I can stay focused and know that i'll pull through.

It's really been a rough patch for me, and although I have those times where I think it's impossible to ever overcome.. I know I'll be ok. Sure we are only human and sometimes those rough times will over ride the positivety but as long as I stay focused, I think when those times hit me with a curve ball, i'll be able to think fast.

I just often wonder if people look at me and are taken back by the path I've chosen. Oh well, I don't care. It is what it is and we all live our own lives. The only person that is in control of it all is God and yourself. As long as you do everything through him, all things are possible.